Monday, January 18, 2010

i feel like i'm falling into a bottomless pit...
Will someone even care tothrow down a rope to save me?
i feel so stupid and useless.
i just have negative feelings about myself...
i really tried my best to tink positively but i can't find anything good about myself...
people just keep treating me like their punching bag to vent their frusruations and anger on...
am i really dat disgusting dat i dont even have the right to breath the air around me?
wat should i do?
waiting for a miracle seems useless...
a tiny part of me still have hope dat someone would save me from tis living hell...
but i don trust dat part of me...
trusting something is really very tiring...
sometimes it's really painful too....
i know all tis sounds emo or watever u call,
i really tried to change my world into a brighter place
but darkness seems to be more suited to exist in my world...
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words cannot express the way i bleed for u...

i have a deep cut ...
it pains me everyday,
it won't heal,
it will never go away,
but u can sooth it for me,
just stay by my side...
u noe it's ur fault
for craving ur name on my heart....

is it pathetic for me to cry for the one i love?
is it stupid to bleed for the one i love?
how about when he is out of my reach?

did u know that i only see darkness?
it's an illness... you know?
the only way to cure it is for u to say "i love u"

i hug my pillow when i'm sleeping,
wishing it had the same scent and warmth as u....

when i see u smile and know dat smile is not for me,
dat is when i miss u the most...

i was over him,
i swear!
but when him look at me,
i fell in love with him all over again...

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a girl out
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Thursday, January 14, 2010

alot of unwanted and unexpected things happened...
i really...don noe wat to do...
i'm so messed up...
WAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!!???????????
i tink to much...
if tis cont...
i may have depression....
lots of people say dat...i'm too negative....
U TINK I WANNA BE NEGATIVE?!
i just don wanna get hurt!
many people always give me irritated looks...
it's annoying....
homework is piling up....
i dunno wat should i do to improve in my studies........
i seem so...useless........
I REALLY A DAMN FREAKIN MIRACLE TO HAPPEN!!!!!!!
someone help me......

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a girl out
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